In the old days

All my life I've been fluffy/chunky/fat whatever you want to call it, although I prefer fluffy....it rolls off the tongue the best.  People always made comments about.  I have hated how I look as far back as I can remember.

Which is horrible to set and think about it.

When I was 16 or 17, something went nutso with me and I lost a ton of weight without trying.  My doctor checked my blood and urine and I can't remember exactly what he said now, but I want to say my body wasn't storing fat.  He said it wasn't anything to be worried about, in fact I should be thankful because I was energetic for the first time and losing weight.  I was all woohoo.

I remember that during this time my breakfast was either nothing or a honey bun, my lunch was a candy bar, bag of chips and a pop, and dinner was lots of helpings of whatever my mom made and pizza with friends on the weekends.  My only exercise was marching in the high school band.

Yeah healthy diet there huh.  But somehow I was losing weight, and was energetic and ready to go.

Then during my senior year, I switched from a shot to birth control pills, and whatever IT was that had me energetic and losing weight died a sad death.  I put on something like 20 lbs in a month because of those damn things.  Oh yeah you read that right.  When I told my dr about it he said it wasn't the pills that I had to be eating terribly to cause it.

Um nope.  Still eating the same, and even more active dumb ass.

Needless to say those pills threw my already weird body out of whack again, and my weight has gradually gone up, no matter what I do most of the time.  And because I HATE exercising, the only diet that has ever worked was Weight Watchers and that has stopped working.

I just had lunch of steamed veggies and a slice of pork from last night's dinner and I don't know why, but it made me think of my lunches from high school.  How is it possible that I ate that terribly, and although was considered chunky, weighed in at 125 soaking wet back then, but eat way better now and weigh so much I'm ashamed to even say the number out loud? 

I still say I'm a medical marvel.